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21 March 2005 @ 02:11 pm
My childhood was very hard. My parents were eccentric, overly religious and poor. Many of the kids at school teased and bullied me. I never fit in and I never had very many friends. When I did make a friend I usually did whatever that person wanted just so I would have a friend. This led to many unhealthy relationships. This has left me very sensitive and weak as an adult. Whenever people make the slightest negative comment I find myself withdrawing instantly. I usually find a quite place and cry. I also tend to give into other people to seek their approval. Later I scold myself saying why could I not stand up for myself. Either way I end up sad and alone. My husband gets annoyed with me because I constantly want reassurance and affection. I know I can be an emotional drain but I really need his attention. Does anyone else ever feel like this?
Current Mood: sadsad
Solstyce Calé: JDCessenceofthemus on March 21st, 2005 11:49 pm (UTC)
I deffinately have a need to seek approval, reassurance and affection...
Lisolette: contemplativesoulstorage on March 22nd, 2005 06:22 pm (UTC)
Yes. Meds have really helped me with this in addition to therapy. It really is hard isn't it trying to get past the past *hugs*
Janila_bellaca on April 6th, 2005 09:20 pm (UTC)
I definately understand your situation. When i was a kid i was told that i tried too hard and always wanted SOMEONE to like me and be my friend. I went thru a lot of pain and saddness because i wanted friends. Now i have a very small circle of friends and i'm quick to push people away... why let urself get hurt, right. It's good to protect yourself but not to exclude urself. I know it but i still do it. I'd love to talk to u a bit more u sound interesting and we have a lot in commmon... Add me as a friend?
rouge_dawn on April 7th, 2005 12:56 am (UTC)
sure...add me back?
Janila_bellaca on April 7th, 2005 03:19 pm (UTC)
absolutely... i already added u