December 12th, 2006


I never did an introduction post.

1.Do you do anything creative like art,poetry,singing,writing or playing music,dancing or other?
I love to paint, draw, color, sing, and write some. I try to dance but I'm pretty clumsy.

2.Were you been abused as a child or teen?
Yes. I was beat by my father throughout my childhood. I was probably sexually abused as a small child but do not remember it. I do remember talks of a sexual nature that made me uncomftorable. However, I did have good male influence as a young girl; I had kind brothers, a few good teachers, and a sweet grandfather.

3.Do you collect dolls or toys?
YES! I love stuffed animals and I would really like to start a doll collection. Not just of fancy stuff, but Barbies, Bratz, American Girls, and all that in additon to a really nice ball joint doll.

4.At what age did you start dating?
Seventeen, surprisingly only two out of thirteen have been jerks. Sadly, I married one of them, but it didn't last long.

5.Do you have any physical conditions? Like migraines,ibs,arthritis,fybromialga etc,,?
Migraines, backpain, poor knees, bad eyesight, and obesity.

6.Do you suffer from depression?
Oh my, yes. From about age eight to eighteen I was pretty suicidal, but I've come a long way. I still can have deep depressions that are usually triggered by my own insecurity, but I'm not going to do anything like that.

7.Do you suffer from anxiety?
Yeah, I've quit jobs because I though "something bad" was going to happen, don't like going to parties by myself, have have a myriad of other things, but I'm pretty strong willed and will ofen force myself to do something instead of running away.

8.Do you suffer from PTSD or other?
I've never been diagnosed, but probably.

9.Are you shy?
I tend to feel shy, but act outgoing so that others wont know I'm shy.

10.Are you on any anti-depressants or anti anxiety medication or any other psychotroptic meds for psychiatric reasons?
Not currently. I havn't found one that works well for me.

11.Do you have a hopeful future outlook?
Generally, I suppose, though my depression/anxiety can be a bit rough on my boyfriends. I don't really have much in the way of "goals" but I do enjoy much of my life.

12.Do you take life one day at a time or plan ahead for the future?
One day at a time with some planning.

13.Do you trust easily or is it very hard for you to trust?
It's pretty easy at first, but if it's betrayed it's really, really hard (if not impossible) to earn back.

14.Do you like art? If so what are your favorite kinds?
I love art. My favoite kinds of art are simply those that move me. I love classic artists like Artemisia Gentileschi, but I also enjoy things like Dadaism, found art, asemblage. For contemporary artists, some artists that I like are David Mack, Junko Mizuno, David LaChapelle, Stephen Mackey, Peter Callesen, Keith Garv, Luke Chueh, Kurt Halsey, and many more.

15.What kind of music do you listen to usually?
In all honestly I listen to just about everything. There are lots of songs I don't like, but very few artists, and no genres. I can usually find something I love in a genre and something I like from an artist.

16.Name 3 favorite movies.
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Labyrinth, and Dune.

17.Why did you join this community?
Because I wanted to.
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