July 10th, 2006


me and my sister childhood friends:my cousins

My mom sent this picture of me and my sister intothedream, and my cousins Jennifer and Darren. We were so close. We used to play games like "Escape To Witch Mountain" tho we came up with spanish counterpart siblings Robbie and Rosa I think. We also played witches. We hated Marshalls and had a I Hate Marshalls song which apparently was recoreded for prosperity when I was maybe 9? I still have it and we were rather funny...it was a pretend radio broadcase with all of us commenting on how much we hated Marshalls. They lived in Hamden MA then and me and my sister lived in Queens Ny and then Long Island Ny. They eventually moved to California where they both live today. They are both married and my cousin Jenn who is one year older than me (Darren is a year younger than my sister)has two kids. So surreal. I saw her a few years ago when I visited CA and stayed with my aunt and uncle her parents. It was like no time had passed. It was like we had just seen each other the day before.

When I got this picture from my mom... I decided to write Jenn. I felt bad that I shouldn't write her cause I have been kind of blue lately and because it seemed her life was so perfect ( a rather juvenile view I know) but I decided she is my cousin and of all people I shouldnt feel that way so I wrote her. She wrote me back such a warm email. It made me happy. We arent the best at writing regularly...but we still have such a strong bond. I am gonna try to keep in touch better and accept that my cousin loves me just as I am. From Left my sister,me,Darren and Jennifer. For the record.. I always hated that paneling,wallpaper and that room...my bedroom...

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1.Do you do anything creative like art,poetry,singing,writing or playing music,dancing or other? I don't think I'm very creative. I"m good at the piano if that counts.

2.Were you been abused as a child or teen? Verbally by my mom but never physically

3.Do you collect dolls or toys? I collect dolls and I still sleep with my hello kitty plushy and my blanky

4.At what age did you start dating?15

5.Do you have any physical conditions? Like migraines,ibs,arthritis,fybromialga etc,,?I have migrains

6.Do you suffer from depression?I have since forever but I was diagnosed at 16        

7.Do you suffer from anxiety?I have severe anxiety that almost got me kicked out of school and I don't have a license because I'm afraid to drive(I've had my temps since I was 15 but I'm to afraid to try for my license)

8.Do you suffer from PTSD or other? don't think so

9.Are you shy? I can be if I don't know you or aren't comfortable around you but most of the time I'm not

10.Are you on any anti-depressants or anti anxiety medication or any other psychotroptic meds for psychiatric reasons?I'm on both zoloft and wellbutrin for my depression and anxiety

11.Do you have a hopeful future outlook?I try to but for the most part I'm a pessimist

12.Do you take life one day at a time or plan ahead for the future?I have enough problems just getting through the day so I would say I take it one day at a time

13.Do you trust easily or is it very hard for you to trust?I trust easy but I'm no one's fool

14.Do you like art? If so what are your favorite kinds?I love art; my favorite style is impressionism including artists such as renoir, van gogh, and monet

15.What kind of music do you listen to usually? classic rock and adult alternative

16.Name 3 favorite movies.bed of roses, while you were sleeping, and born identity

17.Why did you join this community? to meet other peple who are like me and to gain confidence that you can be an adult-child and still function in the adult world(my mom is always telling me to grow up)