November 7th, 2005


Hi everyone - here's the survey thing :)

Hi everyone :) I'm new here - here's my profile thingie.

1.Do you do anything creative like art,poetry,singing,writing or playing music,dancing or other?
Well, I have an MFA in playwriting so I write plays. I have a minor in art but I'm not good at it... I like painting though. And I played cello for 12 years, but no longer do. I got frustrated with it in college.

2.Were you been abused as a child or teen?
Emotionally and verbally, yes. My mom had a fiance who said and did really inappropriate things to me. He never touched me but I think if I had been any older, things would have gotten bad.

3.Do you collect dolls or toys?
I'm a sucker for stuffed animals. I still sleep with a bear that I've had since I was 7. I think they're alive when I'm not home. I also like action figures but don't collect them... my adult self keeps telling me I'm too old.

4.At what age did you start dating?
I was 17.

5.Do you have any physical conditions? Like migraines,ibs,arthritis,fybromialga etc,,?
I get migraines and even though I have never been diagnosed with ibs, I wouldn't be surprised if I had it. I have eczema as well when I get really stressed out.

6.Do you suffer from depression?
Yes, indeed I do.

7.Do you suffer from anxiety?
I have panic anxiety disorder and have taken medication for it for almost six years. Sometimes I try to go off of it and it always ends badly and I have to go back on it. This time it's for good.

8.Do you suffer from PTSD or other?
Nope, not this one.

9.Are you shy?
At first I am. But then I think I share too much.

10.Are you on any anti-depressants or anti anxiety medication or any other psychotroptic meds for psychiatric reasons?
Yup, I take Lexapro for panic anxiety disorder.

11.Do you have a hopeful future outlook?
Not right now. My life is usually wrapped up in who I'm dating. Since I just got dumped, I feel that the future is full of eternal suffering. But once I get back on my feet, I will feel eternal hope. I hate the down times...

12.Do you take life one day at a time or plan ahead for the future?
The future is my worst enemy. I feel like if I don't have a definate plan, my life will fall apart. I'm trying my best to live by the day though.

13.Do you trust easily or is it very hard for you to trust?
Very easy. Too easy.

14.Do you like art? If so what are your favorite kinds?
I do like art. I like comic books, and I very much consider that art. As for arty art, I like art deco, like Mucha. I love his work.

15.What kind of music do you listen to usually?
I like Metallica more than anything. I like rock and quirky stuff. The White Stripes, They Might Be Giants, Beck, Queens of the Stone Age... those are my favorites.

16.Name 3 favorite movies.
The Royal Tenenbaums
Reservoir Dogs
Hm... I just saw Melinda and Melinda. I think that movie will stick with me for a long time.

17.Why did you join this community?
Because I'm just discovering what my "problem" in life is and I feel kind of alone. I'm essentially a child in the body of a 26 year old, in all the good and bad ways. I need help dealing with the bad things (like codependency and separation anxiety) while still loving the good things (like stuffed animals and cartoons).