September 30th, 2003

my brother

the child in me is scared.
one of my brother's developed a clot on his lung after having cancer surgery that went quite well.
this is the man who introduced me to culture, drama, the arts and many other things.
i am afraid and confused.
the little 4 year old girl that he held the hand of is crying.
i want to see him.
i want him to push me in the swings again.
i want to catch lizards and go for walks.
i know he's not dead.
but that does not make me less afraid.
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