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Baby Bloodheart
02 September 2001 @ 01:33 am
College again soon, I have already missed 2 years from getting kicked out last year and the year before, now I have to go to a new one where I don't know anyone at all and I have to travel for miles.
I'm really not looking forward to it, it means doing that whole outcast thing again. The thing is, when I was little I was locked in my room all the time so I wasn't allowed to talk to people, that along with being round Germans all the time meant I was rubbish at talking to anyone, its still the same. People know straight away that I am not normal and decide not to talk to me, I hate that.
College is far to scary, I don't want to do the whole growing up thing, I missed out on the whole childhood thing, I am about 7 years behind everyone else when it comes to social skills, still act like a big spoiled brat most of the time. I just want to keep away from college as much as possible, I don't want to have to be adult, college is all about growing up. I'm not finished with being a kid yet.