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01 January 2001 @ 06:56 pm
Trying to not Stay in my Protective Box Too Long  
I am five and sucking my two fingers (the ones next to the pinky) right now. No matter how hard I try to not let it bother me, I do get bothered when I reach out to someone and they don't reach back. I asked a ljer if they wanted to chat to give me their name on the chat thingy. They didn't so I feel regretful and silly and small. I deleted my response in their journal so noone else would know I asked. I wonder when I will be able to let things like this go. Already I have done something I regret but yet if I don't try then I am not letting my defenses down enough to live. Living involves sometimes getting hurt. Perhaps this person will reach back at a later time. If they don't Ill try hard to not take it personally. The world does not revolve around me,,,that is my new manta I shall chant while eating sugary things...the world does not revolve around me and people's lives are not designed to figure out ways to ignore or neglect me.
Current Mood: uncomfortableuncomfortable
ex_evil on January 1st, 2001 05:08 pm (UTC)
well anyone who would refuse to chat is being silly and/or paranoid. Not to mention rude. If you ever want to chat, you can always look for me...on AOL (or AIM) look for Eviltrkstr, on ICQ my number is on my info page.

Lisolettesoulstorage on January 2nd, 2001 02:46 pm (UTC)
Thanks I added you on my buddy list on aol *hugs*